Electric Fire

It roars, flames alight with majesty
a flicker of gold streaking across eyes,
motion unrestricted, unchained,
refusing to be dampered by the misty
fog. It stomps on the slate,
a skinny stiletto proving a point,
crinkles along with the hair spray
from an aerosol bottle, sparkles
like the glitter tossed on a dance floor.

Try- P!nk

Where there is desire, there's going to be a flame. Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned. But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're going to die. You've gotta get up and try.

My Year in Review: Bring it on 2013

As it comes to the final month of 2012, I've begun my year in review. I've sat down and really began thinking about how I started 2012 and how I'm ending 2012. This year was a big year for me. I don't feel the same and I shouldn't. I know every year everyone says the same thing, that you've matured and learned your lessons. As cliche as that sounds, it's true.

Over this year, I've learned a lot about myself. I learned how I handle tough situations. I took command by grabbing life by the horns and taking control of my life. I pledged Alpha Phi Omega, which opened up a world of opportunities and friendships that I had not previously really realized I was missing. I have a community and a family.

I successfully finished my final fall semester in college and clutched one of my ultimate goals: semester President's List. I've had some classes just to fill some requirements, but I've had some classes that really inspired me and reminded me why I love writing and why I do what I do.

I've had a pretty successful first semester as Managing Editor of the Informer. We went to Chicago and Seattle (Seattle this past spring) and learned a lot there. I've covered breaking news, including running out from the library at top speed with only my phone to cover a fire in a residential building. I've gotten the juicy details of an intruder who was eating rainbows. Overall, it's exciting and I love it.

And now I'm embarking on new journeys. I'm getting ready to head to New York City for my winter break. I'll be going to Buffalo and Canada for spring break (really got to get on getting that passport!). And I'll be enjoying my final semester at college and graduating with honors. Time truly flies when you're having fun and I plan on making this final semester count.

I can't say what 2013 will bring me. I'm hoping it brings me a job, an apartment and maybe a car! I hope it brings me love and happiness. But what I can say is that I'm ready to take on the new year. Just like 2012, I'm ready to tackle it head on and just deal with whatever comes my way.

My big lesson of 2012

As the year nears to a close, I sat in my room and I kind of figured out what my big lesson was of the year. My big lesson was that I learned to love myself. I learned to love my body, every curve, every freckle, everything.

It was a difficult journey. It's a journey that only so many women can say that they've found. In today's society, we're so beat down with how we should look or how we should dress and the thing is, you have to do what makes you happy. When I get up in the morning and do my makeup and pick out an outfit, it's because it's what I want to wear and how I want to look. I can look in the mirror and say I'm beautiful. I couldn't do that before 2012. I didn't have the same confidence.

Some people in my life really helped me a lot come to this lesson and I thank them from the deepest parts of my heart. You guys know who you are and I cannot thank you enough times.

I never thought that one day I could look in the mirror and say with complete honesty "I feel pretty and I love  me." I like picking out profile pictures. I enjoy sharing my world and my adventures. I don't shy away from cameras anymore. I'm just completely comfortable with myself.

I feel pretty when I'm ready to go out with friends or run to class or even when I throw on yoga pants and a hoodie because I know it's going to be a long day. It doesn't matter if my hair's being an unruly mess that day, I still love every dark brown curl, even as defiant as they can be. I'm ok with being naked, with just being in my own skin. I'm not ashamed of my body. I'm not a skinny twig. I'm not supermodel tall. I'm me and I love it.

I really wish other women could learn this lesson, that they can embrace them. It doesn't matter society. It's doesn't matter your BMI or how big your boobs are or how small your stomach is. What matters is that you're happy and that you know you're beautiful because you are.

Do you want this?

Let me in, heels clicking on the tile,
I know you want to know what's under this coat,
lead me up the stairs, pinch my butt,
tsk tsk we're still in public.
I'll slide a hand in your back pocket,
swing my hips until you open the door.

Let me in, discard those clothes,
unbutton my coat for me, run your hands
down my chest, lips grazing my collarbone,
take my hand and bring me to the bed,
but it's my turn as I straddle you,
skirt rising up leaving bare thighs
holding on tight as my hands travel to your belt.

Let me kiss those lips, run my hands through your hair,
press my body against yours, remind you why I'm here,
you can't stand having a seductive spark on your lap,
you toss me down on the bed, taking control,
making sure I know what a man you are,
and oh do I know.

Feel Again- OneRepublic

It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace everything
that I've had till my feet went numb
Praying like a fool that's been on the run
Heart still beating but it's not working
It's like a million dollar phone that you just can't ring
I reach out trying to love but I feel nothing
Yeah, my heart is numb.

Va Va Voom- Nicki Minaj

Time for some new inspiration

Hey followers! I have great news that I haven't posted here yet. On top of Christmas being my favorite holiday ever, I have a lot to look forward to in the next couple of weeks. First of all, I will be posting an end of the year personal review along with my resolution for the new year. Maybe you'll even get an end of the world poem, though it's slightly cliche, I may have some fun with it.

Also, in one week, I will be moving to NYC! So that means that I'll have all new inspiration for upcoming poems. With city life comes a fast paced world that I completely adore. I'll be hitting the subways, eavesdropping on some funny lines and taking lots of awesome photos to write from.

This coming spring semester, I will be entering my final semester of college and along with that, taking my Advanced Poetry course. If you guys remember last fall when I took Intermediate Poetry, I get a lot of amazing works from the classes and I'm really excited for what I'll be able to achieve in Advanced.

Followers, you're in for one heck of a ride in the upcoming weeks and I can't wait to share it with you!

Fastest Girl in Town- Miranda Lambert

Ain't no use in trying to slow me down 'cause you're running with the fastest girl in town. Ain't you baby? I like 'em crazy. My reputation follows me around, just makes me want to give them more to talk about. Let's go to town for a little while, I'll be wearing nothing but a tattoo and a smile.

It just keeps drivin' me

Every time those bloody words drip out from your mouth
Every time it cuts into my skin, my head bows but only
for a second, it just keeps drivin' me. I pick myself up.
Try and be as mean as you want, slice into my flesh,
but it doesn't matter as it just keeps drivin' me.

I just want to do better, hold my head higher,
slip on those stilettos and show the world exactly who
you cut up. I'll sew my own wounds, clean up the drops
of red scattered around the bathroom sink. You'll find
me looking down from the sky and the spotlight.

I'll hit the city lights, drown in the neon, the sounds
of cabs and the fast life. I don't turn around, refuse
to go back. You go with me, beside me, or else you're
behind me. I laugh as the cuts heal, the scars fade
but don't worry, it just keeps drivin' me forward.

Giddy on Up- Laura Bell Bundy

Love love you let me down, let me down no you won't string me along. You better be moving on. Giddy on up giddy on out.

Ghost

What would it be like to be a ghost?

To watch those that you love
wander the Earth, haunt the ones
who stabbed you in the heart,
to be gone from the world
rid of its misery and shadows.

To not feel the heart beat
inside your chest or the blood
pump through your veins,
not worry about appearance
or presentation or professionalism.

What would it be like to be gone?

It Shatters My Heart

My heart is shattered
to think of the children's smiles
that are no longer.
My heart is destroyed
having known classrooms
and schools, feeling
the pain of the parents
who have to say goodbye
right before Christmas.

My heart is shattered
and my eyes cry the tears.
Schools should be safe,
playgrounds filled with laughter,
gyms with children playing ball
not a bloodshed disaster.

This world is not okay
and my heart will continue
to be shattered, fighting
for an attempt to understand
why someone would do this.

Whiskey Lullaby- Brad Paisley

I promise you guys, I'm not depressed. I'm actually quite happy. Just finding this song really beautiful tonight.