Just a Time

I have a weird habit of screwing up.
I cry when I shouldn't.
I attach meanings to things that weren't meant to be.
I'm clingy, dependent and can't be left alone sometimes.
I'm just a royal mess.

What I don't get
is when I want to change and no one believes.
No one thinks I can try and change.
No matter the fact that it's for who I love.
Why am I not given a shot?

I'm hormonal. I'm a girl.
Yes I cry when I shouldn't
but because I used to never cry.
It's scary the day you wake up and realize
it's hard to control your own body when it's overcome
with shakes and night terrors.

I want to try.
I want to fix what I have wrong.
Help me, don't throw me in the corner
or turn your back to me when you've given up the fight.

We're in this for the long haul.
Let's figure it out.